A Little Show and Tell

I grew up in a very religious family where you didn't have sex or engage in any sexual play until you were married and you didn't date until you were ready to get married. Sex wasn't really discussed except to lay down the rules. I had a strong sex drive from an early age. I remember playing Barbies and my character was always sleeping with some guy, getting knocked up! Hahaha. I also masturbated regularly and not just during puberty when my hormones were raging.

As a teenager, I snuck behind my parents backs and started to experiment with masturbation, oral sex, and foreplay. I still didn't lose my virginity until I was 18. I didn't have the stereotypical first time. It was to a significantly older man in an open marriage so there was no relationship other than sex involved. It didn't hurt at all and I didn't bleed. I'm assuming this was from years of masturbation and tampon use. In fact, Mr. First didn't even know I was a virgin when we first had sex until a few years ago when I mentioned it to him. Guess I was just that good! ;)

Anyway, once I lost my virginity, I released a tigress! I wanted sex all the time and couldn't get enough. Unfortunately there were times when I was reckless and didn't use protection or contraception so let me just take this moment to thank what ever supreme being is out there for keeping me from contracting a disease or getting knocked up!! Regardless, I had numerous partners before getting married and slept with many of them multiple times, on and off for years. When I was horny, which was always, I'd simply call up my guys until I found someone who wasn't busy so I could get off. I had steady relationships sprinkled in among it all, some of which I was faithful in and others that weren't so lucky. It really depended on the sexual relationship we had. If we had sex often or whenever I needed it, I was faithful. But if the relationship wasn't that strong to begin with or our sex life was lacking, I probably went elsewhere to get what I needed.

I'll admit, there were times when I would question whether I had some sort of sexual addiction or problem because of my apparent need for sex, regardless of the consequences. I'm sure my upbringing and shelter (for lack of a better word) from sex didn't help. I am a contradiction in that I have both a strange disconnect between physical sex and emotional relationship but I also require a true emotionally sexual connection within my relationships. With only one exception in my lifetime, I have no problem maintaining a completely sexual relationship with out any emotional connection. It's just sex. In fact, there have been times when the man began falling for me or wanted more out of the relationship than I was looking for so I had to end it.

Still, after marriage and even children I remain a very sexual human being and I enjoy experimenting with new things. In fact, my husband and I have been discussing some role play, such as "meeting" at a bar and taking each other home. So I'll be sure to post about that as soon as we give it a try!!

Those Doggone Balls!

This evening I had the opportunity to test out the breathable ball gag from Eden Fantasys. I get into light to medium BDSM and I've been waiting to try this thing out for months now! But, it wasn't exactly what I was expecting.

First of all, it was a little odd getting the strap placement just right around my head so that it was tight enough that the strap wouldn't fall down the back of my head. But once that was conquered, I didn't have a problem with it slipping anymore and it stayed in place, even when I was face down on the bed.

I liked the fact that this ball gag is breathable and has the holes in it because I do have claustrophobia issues that like to lay dormant and then pop up at the least opportune times. At no time did I feel like I couldn't breathe or was too restrained for my comfort.

The straps were comfortable on my face and didn't pull my hair at all. They're made out of leather but have a soft, almost velvety feel on the inside. The buckle side is 11.5 inches from the ball and the strap side is 15.5 inches with 7 holes each an inch apart. The ball itself is made out of a soft rubber but it is still very strong and sturdy, not soft enough to collapse. It is approximately 1.5 inch in diameter. In total, the length is approximately 28 inches.

I'm new to the gags so I found my jaw getting slightly sore while wearing it but it wasn't painful or unbearable, just a different sensation of not being able to close my mouth.

I was wearing this product in the doggie style position and had my face resting on the bed. Being in that position was ironic because I sort of felt like a dog from all of the drool and spit I was creating! That was the one thing that really almost distracted me from enjoying the experience! My bed and face were getting soaked in my own drool because with the gag in place, I couldn't swallow.

Overall, I wasn't unhappy with this product but it didn't give me the turn on that I was expecting, and that may have been due to the distracting liquid oozing from my mouth. I plan to give it another fair shot sometime when I'm not on my face to see if I like it better. Until then, I'll leave the balls to the dogs!